Yep, I decided to type something in here.  For the first time in a long time I went with some friends after work to The Pub, and yeah I am feeling pretty good right now so I thought why the hell not,  Hopefully I am typing well enough for anyone who may read this thing to understand.   2008 sucked ass.  And the second day of 2009 we lost mom for 5 mins.  Yep she was dead but they were able to bring her back.  Why was 2008 bad well I was in the hospital 3 times from May until Nov.  Something to do with a 3 low blood counts and stupid staph infections.  Each time the infections were on my right hand somewhere.  I was told it was not Leukemia yet but it would turn that way I have to have two bone marrow biopsies(sp?) a year.  Them son of a bitches hurt so I decided if I had one a year that was good enough.  I don't know to be honest I don't care anymore.

  So I guess you all are wondering about the special lady in my life.  Well her name is Lucy and she is part beagal, part something else.  She is my lady right now.   I had her fixed and damn she got fat.   The kids are doing great Leah still thinks she is the future Miss America, Tyler is a sport nut.  Amy is 17 and driving me crazy going through her teenage years.  And Adam,  Hell I haven't seen Adam in over a year.  He is in the Navy and is stationed in Hawaii.  He is suppose to be coming home next month.  I hope so I miss the little shit. 

Anyway I don't think anyone reads this anyway so .  

Anybody still read this thing?   Hello,  Am I all alone now?

Cool, you can change your font colors now.  (Or could you always do that?)     Lets see where to start.  Did you notice that I HAD to change my user pic?  I like Carrie she is a great singer, its not my fault that my favorite is Hot as Hell.  

Two more weeks for Baseball, a tournament this weekend and one next weekend.  After that we will take a two week break before we start practicing for football.   

Did I tell you all that my dog Pug died.  Gosh dang it that hurt me bad.  I had just taken him to the vet the week before and got his rabies shot and  got him frontlined.  The vet had his age at 14.  I knew he was getting weaker everyday.  I came home from work that day and sit with him on the front porch swing all evening long.   He would try to stand up and then fall over. I found a little comfort though, as he took his last breath , I was holding him, He opened his eyes looked up at me and died.  He also did something else on me but I forgave his because that wasn't his fault.  I miss that dog.  I miss him bad.

After about a week I decided I wanted another dog.   A friend from work bought me a puppy that was part Datsun part Beagle.  Holy Shit that dog is wild.  she is 7 months old and chews up everything.  I have to buy big huge bones everyday just so she doesn't ruin anything of mine.  Didn't realize how much I liked her until I got a call at work yesterday from my Nephew Adam.  He told me Lucy(The Dog, and don't laugh Leah named her) got hit by a car.  She is okay though she took a big blow the the head but the Vet said she would be okay just a slight concussion.  She broke her left paw, and was cut and a few pavement burns.  Maybe it will teach her to stay away from the road.

The kids are doing good, getting meaner everyday but they are good.

Mom finally is feeling better from all her blood and stomach problems, but since this is my mom you know there has to be something else wrong.  She had a spot on the side of her nose that would not go away so she has it checked and sure enough it is Cancer.  She is having the spot removed Monday they will know then if she has to take chemo.  He said if it is bad he will have to remove and reconstruct another nose.

You know you are getting old when your oldest nephew graduates High School.  I am really proud of him.  He called me about a month ago and asked if he  come over so we could talk.   He told me he had to get away from his Dad he said his Dad was drinking heavy again and he couldn't take it anymore.  He said I sure don't want to go back to Moms.  He said I just want to leave town.  He asked me what to do and I told him if I could have I would've  joined the military.  He said that is a good idea.  Well about two weeks go by I get a call at work, Adam calls and says I leave Oct 31 I will do my boot camp in Chicago.  I will be gone three months and then I will be sent to Florida for schooling.  After schooling I will either be stationed in San Diego or San Fran.    He said they will give him 38,000 towards his college education for signing up for 5 years with the United States Navy.

I hope this all makes sense I was struggling as I was writing it because I was about to fall asleep. 
 

I know I am really behind on reply emails and keeping this thing updated but I have been so busy these last few months I haven't had much time to do anything. Besides work and the two ball teams I am coaching, mom has been in and out of the hospital. She kept having to go in and have blood transfusion because she was bleeding but they couldn't find out where the blood was coming from. Mom has some kind of antibody in her blood and everytime they had to give her blood her blood type would change. They removed 18 inches of her lower intestines and found a small tumor there. They are hoping that is where the bleeding was coming from. They went ahead and got six units of blood sent in just in case she need it during the surgery. She didn't need any during surgery but two days after the surgery her blood pressure dropped to 40/20 and her kidneys stopped functioning. Her blood count dropped to 15. She spent the next three days in the Intensive Care Unit. She had to have 5 units of blood. I have seen my mom sick before but never as sick as she is right now. Mom is a fighter but I am not sure how much more she can take. I am not sure if she is willing to fight it anymore.

The travel baseball team had a tournament this weekend. We came in second place. Tyler and two of his friends rode with me to the game. I told them if they won I would take them anywhere they wanted to go. Let me just say Tyler takes after me. I call him my mini me. Check out to see where the wanted to go so I took them. .

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I promise to get to all those reply emails soon.

Things are going GREAT for me. I hope things are great for yall too. I was going to write(well type) what has and is going on with me but I have decided to wait and do it later since I have already had to hit the backspace button five times. Anyway I will return soon. Hope all is going well with everyone.

I got a nudge the other day so I reckon that means I need to update. I wish there was something to update about but there really ain't much going on with me. Frog's football team is in the playoffs if they win Saturday they go to the Superbowl the next Saturday. So far this year out of 8 games they are undefeated. They have only allowed the other teams to score two touchdowns on them. Hopefully they can win it all. Turtle is well she thinks she is Miss America. She is still cheering and thinks she is little Miss It. What else.... Oh yeah I got my oldest nephew Adam who turned 18 in Sept a job with Coke. He just stocks the stores at night. After working for a year hoping to see Carrie Underwood that dipshit got to see her his second week at work. He said it was about 8:30 at night and her and another girl came in and was buying Diet Coke. I was like sure you did and he goes I did look, he showed me his Coke hat and sure enough there was her autograph. He is an asswipe.

Mom is not doing very well. She is having some kind of thing performed on her next Tuesday. They found something on her Intestines and they are going to try and just burn them off. If that doesn't work she will have to have her small intestines removed. Say a prayer if you are the praying type please.

Lets see, I moved, had to bury one of my dogs, have made a few demo tapes and bought me a new truck. My love life, nothing much I have gone out with a few people but not sure if I want to be in a relationship with any of them. I know who if I could pick I would pick but I have wanted this person for a long time now and I am no closer now than I was then. One day it will happen. One day I will find the person I am meant to be with.

I wont bore yall any longer. I will try to do better I promise.

I am going to do something diffrent in this post. Usually I am bragging on Frog but this time I am going to brag a little bit on my neice. Leah is four now and she was in our Little Miss Fairest of The Fair pagent this year. She was in the 4-6 age group. Here is a slideshow of pictures that Shelly's mom took. Hope you like them
Kodakgallery.com Slideshow

There is more than this but I didn't want to bore yall.

We finished up with Baseball this weekend. In a way I am ready for the break but in a way I will miss it also. Its now time for football but I am not going to be coaching that so now things will calm down a little bit for me. Last weekend we were in a tournament here in Franklin. We played on Friday Night and got our ass kicked bad. It was double elimanation so we got to play on Saturday. I am not sure what the little guys had to eat for breakfest Saturday but they were ready to play ball. (It must have been Wheaties) They won twice on Saturday so we got to play Sunday. We won the first game so that put us in the Championship game. Me and the other five (yes five, we have lots of coaches) were talking and after watching McMinville play we didn't think our chances of winning were very good. HOLY SHIT WE WON. That was the most awesome thing. I handed out trophies and damn I was happy. We were talking to some of the parents of the McMinville team and asked them if they were going to Cookeville this weekend. They told us no they were not going but would have loved to have gone. We were going to be short three kids so we asked if they wanted to come play for us and two of them agreed. In travel ball as long as you go in with a roster they don't check to see where you live. So off to the sports store to get two new uniforms and did you know if you tip them just right they can have them uniforms made in a day? So this weekend we were Cookeville bound. Its about two and a half hours away from Franklin so the smart thing to do is get rooms and just stay for the weekend. There were 26 teams playing in this tournament so rooms were hard to come by and believe me they didn't come cheap. Jason(another coach) and I were talking about how much it would cost to stay the weekend and how some of the families may not really have the money so we went in and paid for all the rooms for the weekend. We got 11 double rooms so the families could all go.

We left out Friday about noon. Checked into the rooms and went to eat. Our first game was at 5 and well we got stomped again. Not sure what it is about Fridays for us but it just ain't our night. Got back to the rooms and went swimming. Later that night we were sitting in the room watching tv and Anthony which is my cousin's husband and also one of the guys who helped me coach the league team, asked me if I could come out side he needed to talk to someone. Anthony is the head highschool football coach for Beech Highschool. He said they were having practice Friday Morning and one of the players came to practice late. He was asking why he was late and the boy said because I was stuck in traffic. Anthony said that is no excuse and the next time you are late you will be running laps. He said the boy started to walk off turned around and looked at him and said does that mean Nathan will have to run laps? His suv just hit a cement truck head on and lifeflight is loading him up about a mile up the road. The boy ended up dying and Anthony is devastated. You can read more about that here - Beech player killed in accident.

Anyway we went in Saturday and won two games. Our last game was at 3 so we went back to the rooms let the kids swim then we all went to Outback Steakhouse. There were 47 of us there and you know what I hate. I was feeding four and when my check came it was $102.00 so I just gave her $150.00 and said Thank You. What I did't realize was that they had already added the tip in with the check. She wasn't even everybodys waitress they had five diffrent ones helping with our party. Oh well she was pretty good so I reckon I shouldn't complain. We left there and a few of us went and played laser tag. I have no idea but I love the hell out of that game. Back to the hotel and back to more swimming. We tried to get the kids to bed early because we had a game at 9 am Sunday. So we had to get up Sunday checkout of the hotel and grab a bite to eat and get to the ballfield it was hectic to say the least. I don't know what happened but that game wasn't even close. We couldn't catch the ball we couldn't hit the ball I think they were still sleeping. Nine is early to be fully awake and ready to play ball and today proved that. Tyler was shortstop and he got hit in the face three times with the ball. He would stop them but it took getting hit for that to happen. I did get pissed and said something to one lady. She was rooting for the other team but was standing right beside our dugout. I finally had enough walked out of the dugout told her the boys were feeling bad enough as it was they didn't need to hear her making fun of them and cheering for the other team. I said could you please go to their side if you would like to cheer them on. She said I didn't realize this wasn't a PUBLIC park. I told her it was a public park but most people had enough descency to go to the side their team was on to cheer them on. I said lady this is 6 and 7 year old kids if it makes you feel special to make fun of them right in front of them that shows what kind of person you really are. I said we really don't appreciate your kind and you are not welcome on our side. She walked off and was mumbling the whole time but damn it all to hell she pissed me off. Oh well anyway we lost so it was time to get back home. After the game the kids were down in a big way. I said guys you finished in the top ten out of 26 teams I said you have nothing to hang your heads about. Also this travel ball team only plays in about five tournaments a year. As a team we don't play together that often. They all play ball but not as a team and some are not even in the same district. I said we come to these tournaments and play against teams who that is all they do is travel ball. They play ball nine months out of a year and they play all them games as a team. To get a team together and play just a few times a year we did damn good in this tournament. I did say damn and the kids loved that. I told them I would be calling them in a few months and we would be ready to do it again. So ball is over for a while and I reckon I will start posting more often. Hopefully then my post will not look like novels like this one. I should be able to post pics from the tournament soon. They said they would have them ready in about two weeks.

Sorry for the long post hope I didn't bore everybody to tears.

I reckon it is update time. I get asked this question often, Does it bother you to go home and Allison being gone? In all honesty No because I am never home myself. All I do at home anymore is sleep and take a shower (oh and yes I still feed the animals). Another question is what are you going to do about the house? Uhh I am going to live in it. I am paying for it so I am going to live there.

I thought I was doing really good about the whole divorce thing but something happened today that made me realize it will take a while for it to be really OK. Let me explain this. Okay I was coaching a Tball team this summer well we came in second place. The coach who finished in first place got the All-Star team. He called and asked me if Me, my brother and Randy(the man who helped me and my brother) would help him coach the All-Star team so of course I was like 'Hell Yes I Will'. Well we are down to 2 teams left us and Humphreys County. Humphreys beat us Friday Night and they have won all of their games. If we win the six oclock game then we will play them in a doublehitter for the Championship. If we lose at 6 then we will still finish second. Of course we will be happy with second but damn that Championship sounds good too. Anyway FRIENDS please wish us luck or say a prayer or something. We need all the help we can get. You know what though even after this is over with we still have the Travel Ball team where we travel all over the state of TN. So needless to say I have a full summer and fall ahead of me. We have a tournament the last weekend in July. I have already got the hotel room and am ready for a fun weekend.

I forgot to tell what happened today. We were standing in the dugout before the game started and Frog was waving at somebody. He looked over at me with a strange look on his face. I said what. He said who is that? I turned around and there stood Allison with her new "friend". I admit that hit me like a ton of bricks. I asked Randy if he would pitch tonight cause I didn't really feel like pitching, so he did. I looked over on the bleachers during the game and there they sat with Leah. As usual Leah was talking their heads off and I wanted to yell right there and then to" leave my Weiner alone damn it." After the game she came and hugged Tyler. She looked at me and said Thanks. Thanks? For What? She asked how I was doing I said good, staying busy between work and ball and work and ball there is not much time left in a day. She said Goodluck tomorrow and walked off. To be honest I don't know what I felt at that time. And I still don't.

yall know I am a huge Carrie fan but change the words of this song from he to she and this song hits home for me

was sitting on my doorstep
Hung up the phone and it fell out of my hand
But i knew i had to do it
And he wouldn’t understand

So hard to see myself without him
I felt a piece of my heart break
But when you’re standing at a crossroad
There’s a choice you gotta make

Chorus:
i guess it’s gonna have to hurt
I guess i’m gonna have to cry
And let go of some things i’ve loved
To get on to the other side
I guess it’s gonna break me down
Like falling when you’re trying to fly
It’s sad, but moving on with the rest of your life
Starts with goodbye

I know there’s a blue horizon
Somewhere up ahead just waiting for me
But getting there means leaving things behind
Sometimes life’s so bittersweet

(Repeat chorus)

Time heals the wounds you feel somehow